funemployment

well, I'm entering an new phase here. I lost my job last week, which is unfortunate, but it will bring a new perspective I am sure. It'll push me to finish my law school applications quickly. It will bring be to train on my bike a good deal (hopefully).

Oh, yeah, emily and I just joined a cycling team for the '09 season. We're both excited to get involved in some sanctioned races. Primarily track, to begin with, but I would very much like to get involved in both road and cyclocross racing, if I can only afford the gear. A job would be necessary for that I suppose.

Friends and family from colorado were in town over the last week. They all helped me enjoy the first bit of my transition to unemployment. But with them all leaving I'm ready to start in on a new search. Looking for work for the 8 months or so befor starting at law school, hopefully.

The status of the economy does leave me weary of my choice to go back to school. Articles have been put out detailing the large numbers of law school graduates actively seeking employment that just isn't there. I don't want to be one of those masses. But at the same time, I do feel that the education law school would give me would be quite valuable if I am able to pursue the types of international policy work I would like to do. I have grand dreams. I am certain, though, that they will not come about exactly as I see them, and that's quite fine with me.

We talked about progress, about accomplishment. I'm ready to see some of that. I'm ready to feel like my career is valuable, like my status is secure. Like I've accomplished some worthwhile goals, like I'm set apart. Sure, this is partly vanity and greed, but I think there is more too it. Maybe. I may not have the words I need to express this. I want to prove my ability to myself, that I can get the job I love, that I can provide for my wife. I don't think the job and the money will make me happy, but knowing I have the ability to get there might help me build the courage I need to take big steps. hmmm....

It's going to be a challenge. Nothing too threatening, yet, but a push nonetheless. Tomorrow I will ride my bike. I will look for a job, and I will ride a bike. That sounds about right.